Hello,
My name is Johnny. I'm 29 years old and currently a part-time student looking for work. My goals are to buy a home, buy a car, and to someday start a family. But I am very ambitious about finding my way in life now. After my relationship with a person I believed was "the one" abruptly ended and I was faced with the harsh reality of not only living without her, but the potential to never meet anyone as colorful and wonderful or beautiful, I realized that my insecurity stemmed from a lack of self-actualization. Whenever a relationship ends with regret, or with fear of loneliness, it usually means that there is some personal work to do.
While it would be nice to use this blog for talking about future careers, the reason why I've created it was to deal with the pining process. Despite my realization that self-actualization is needed to find true love, I know that what I felt for my last ex was real, but peppered with mistakes on both of our parts that ultimately led to the demise of our relationship. My mission today is not to evaluate the mistakes that she made, as she has already moved on and made a comfortable life for herself, but to evaluate the mistakes that I had made. I'm hoping by the end of this self-help project I'll be able to recognize the mistakes I had made through the relationship so that I could become a better person and never experience heartache like I have been since the beginning of March.
How do I plan to do it?
Some of my posts will just be the things I've realized so far that I've screwed up on. Others will probably be lamenting the end of the relationship, what's important is this blog is to prevent me from attempting contact with her, as she has the right to live her new life by her own choice. As such, I apologize for the potentially depressing nature of this online journal.
I hope that someday this blog will help someone else who is going through heartbreak, assuming that this is successful, and I can smile knowing that I've put out some positive energy into the world.
Thanks for reading!
